Quit and Burn

Today I quit my job. There isn't really too much to say about it, except for the enormous feeling of liberation i'm experiencing.

It was a silly idea really because I still need money, but I just could not bring myself to get on that bus AGAIN and sit in that stinking office (orifice) AGAIN and spend MORE hours from my life talking to wankers about bull-shit that neither I or they give a fuck about. God, I just want some WORTH back in my life, that surely isn't too much to ask is it?! I decided, maybe just to justify my extremely rash actions, that working at that place is the last bit left of the disaster my life became over the last year.

That was all actually written last week, but I've been so damn busy having a nice time and spending money i dont have on things i don't need, i haven't had time to finish it off. I also mad a cake for the first time for years. It was a bit of a disaster to be honest. I didn't have a whisk and thought I could use a food blender thing, but it all just jammed up in the blade and flour flew out of the bowl all over the place. So i did it with a spoon. It was lumpy. AND I didn't have proper cake tins, they were too shallow, so as the sponge rose it kind of flopped out and made a cake 'brim'. It was all a bit crooked and I couldn't afford icing sugar so it was very plain, just THIN SCRAGGY SPONGE LAYER-CHEAP SUGAR BASED JAM LAYER-THIN BURNT SCRAGGY SPONE LAYER- oh yeah, because on of the sponges got burnt as well. There's a picture- As you can tell I am very proud of my efforts!

I started a new job today at a retreat on the South Downs. What an experience! Get up at 6, there for 7, make mega health orientated breakfast for 20 people padding around in socks, clean up their mess, clean their loo's, put out their fart vegetarian lunch. It's all very nice though really. There are some people there at the moment who are all emotonal wrecks and have come away to build some survival life coursey type skills. I found it bit harsh as there were a lot of people sitting around crying. I got told not to interact with thm as it might make it worse- fair enough I suppose...

Any way, I'm much happier now. Well, except for it being Saturday night and having to go to bed early seeing as I have to be there at 7am again tomorrow.. social life? hello? Nevermind...